Keep Calm and Journey On

Have you ever wondered what happened between yesterday and today to put questions in your mind that zap your confidence?  Oh, man.  That certainly happened to me yesterday and today.  It just blocked me.  I had a whole day free to work on whatever my little heart desired and then, just a couple of simple words came out of my mouth that I couldn't pull back in.  I probably looked as stunned as the person I was conversing with.  My mind screamed, "Why would you say that?  What were you thinking?"  I am not going to go into details other than to say I know the person on the other side made assumptions about me.  Her response made that clear.  I didn't want to rehash it or defend it.  There wasn't time to do so anyway.  It was on a professional level, and it wasn't an attack on her or anything of the sort, but I know that it was not the smartest thing I have ever said in that type of situation, and it bothered me all night.  I cannot tell you how many times I thought, "Why?  Why did you say that?"  Regret.  Disappointment.  Lack of confidence.  That what I began to feel.

The good news is that it didn't keep me up at night and it wasn't the first thought in my head when I woke up this morning, but it did linger.  It blocked me from creativity.  It blocked me from being productive.  I was upset with myself for a little while, but then I prayed.  I turned it over to God.  I asked God about it and God told me not to worry about it.  The message God sent me was, "This too shall pass."  I instantly knew that it would.  I soon came to realize that not only was it not the end of the world, but I started to see there were positive things that will come from that.

We cannot take back things that fly out of our mouth, especially when our egos might be getting the best of us.  We cannot undo the past.  We can look at what we've done, examine it, turn it upside down and then we have to put it in the past where it belongs.  That is what I have done now with writing this post.  I wanted to explain that I, too, am human.  I make mistakes.  We all do, but God will take the burdens away if we let him.  

Whatever regret, disappointment, lack of confidence or anything else that you are feeling right now, let it go.  It will not help you.  It's over and done, water under the bridge, yesterday's news.  It will probably linger more in your brain that anyone else's.  Do you know why?  Because that other person you are wondering about and worried about what they think of you will have their own moment of regret.  They either never gave you a second thought in the first place or they thought about it until they had their own problem to worry about and lost track of your moment of weakness.

I held onto the moment longer than I needed to, but that is over.  Faith got me through.  Embrace faith over mistakes and sleep peacefully, parent on, create, inspire and most of all, do, be, achieve.